i read this book, Veronica decides to die, and it really convinced me that those living in mental hospitals feel the most freedom as they can express complete madness without being judged at all because they are expected to be mad. why is everyone expected to act a certain way all the time to be deemed socially acceptable why can’t it be just to act however the hell you feel.
it hit me when i was very sad the other day and a shop assistant asked ‘how are you’ but automatically you just say ‘good thanks’ when you actually feel like saying ‘i just want to bash everyone because i am hating this day go away’ it is weird that we all put up with false positivity. it is just so boring, not many actually care how someone else is feeling at all but want to just fill up the void of conversation with meaningless chatter.
sorry for the negative vibes that seem to be coming out (today was a nice spring picnic day by the harbour)